Aw, well. You can be someone's best friend and still not see eye to eye, sometimes.
[A lot of the time, after a while.]
Do you remember -- a while back I told you about why my brain's how it is, and how I had that friend I was workin' with and all. Ford was, uh. He was that friend.
[She might have put things together herself. It wouldn't have been hard to. But he figures that, with all the rest of the knowledge she has, might kind of shed some immediate light on what he means.]
After I fell into Hell and saw that demon I showed you I pruned back a lot of things. A lot of what we'd been workin' on together. I used to leave myself reminders when I'd take anythin' real big, failsafes so I wouldn't just bring it all back again, and I made sure I knew I couldn't trust him. It was easier to convince myself he'd never really been my friend than it was to accept my friend had done somethin' like what he'd done, you understand?
[Not that that makes it any better. Nobody walked out of that situation clean, he knows. But it had been the only way he knew to protect himself when he was already barely hanging by a thread.]
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[A lot of the time, after a while.]
Do you remember -- a while back I told you about why my brain's how it is, and how I had that friend I was workin' with and all. Ford was, uh. He was that friend.
[She might have put things together herself. It wouldn't have been hard to. But he figures that, with all the rest of the knowledge she has, might kind of shed some immediate light on what he means.]
After I fell into Hell and saw that demon I showed you I pruned back a lot of things. A lot of what we'd been workin' on together. I used to leave myself reminders when I'd take anythin' real big, failsafes so I wouldn't just bring it all back again, and I made sure I knew I couldn't trust him. It was easier to convince myself he'd never really been my friend than it was to accept my friend had done somethin' like what he'd done, you understand?
[Not that that makes it any better. Nobody walked out of that situation clean, he knows. But it had been the only way he knew to protect himself when he was already barely hanging by a thread.]